Have you ever looked in the mirror and been shocked by what you saw? Staring at the face you see every morning and night while brushing your teeth, or applying mascara, or brushing out your hair, and being astounded by the change in the reflection -- a change you didn't even see happening.
This happens often now. I look at the face I thought I knew perfectly, because it's mine -- the change is terrifying.
The eyes no longer sparkle and smile -- they're dull and frightened. The forehead is no longer smooth -- it's scrunched up and worried all of the time. The lips are chapped and pinched, instead of soft and full. All of the skin is tight with anxiety, the cheeks are hollow, and the eyes are only bright when they're filled with tears.
It's a face I don't recognize.
I sometimes stare at this stranger in the mirror and wonder what happened. When did I become so frightened, so sad, so hopeless?
"What's happening to you?"
I've literally asked her this question. The girl in the mirror offers no response. She just stares back at me, until I'm completely freaked out and I shut myself in my room, far from any reflections or reminders.
I don't even know who I am anymore.