I have not felt this horrible in years.
Not knowing what to do, not knowing what to say, not knowing where to turn -- not knowing -- I hate not knowing.
I feel lost.
Adrift in the dark with nothing but pain for company.
So this is heartbreak. This is real, true, hopeless heartbreak. It's nothing I've ever felt before, not even when I've been hurt in the past. This -- whatever this is -- this. Is unbearable.
I need a nap.