lost tonight...

...wishing under these deep city lights...



...to be stronger than I am
...to be able to keep things to myself
...to not be a burden
...to be able to smile for real
...to be able to sing again
...to know how to meet expectations
...to pick the right path
...to love fully
...to be alone without being lonely
...to find motivation within myself
...to change
...to understand
...to have the holes inside me filled
...to accept what I cannot control and to let it go
...to have faith instead of fear
...to go one day without crying
...to grasp what is true and what is not
...to think less and do more
...to care more about the people and less about the people's actions
...to forgive
...to forget
...to let go of the past
...to walk without looking at the ground
...to sleep, and then to sleep without dreams
...to be enough

...fading away in wishes...fading away in the work of making them come true...

...keep going...