I have a friend, or someone who used to be a friend (and a close one at that). I'm not talking to him right now for various reasons (all of which I have been told on numerous occassions are very good reasons). The truth is, though, that I miss him. A LOT. And so I want to talk to him REALLY badly. But I won't, because he always waits for me to come back to him. And when I DO come back, I always get treated like a naughty child who has finally decided to submit to the all-knowing father.
He is the greatest human temptation I've ever come across. When we were in the friendship stage, he was a temptation. When we were in the almost-relationship stage, he was an even greater temptation. And now that we've had...um.....a disagreement...he's still a temptation.
Fighting desire of any kind is really hard. What I want the most right now is to be able to just talk to him and tell him I'm sorry. I know that's what he wants to hear, and at this point I'm about ready to say it just to get back to being friends. The problem? I really don't have anything to be sorry for, so saying the words would just be a lie.
Stuck!! I love life!! :P Actually, I really do love life. Some aspects of it just aren't very fun.